Not much movement over here, is it?
Since my decision in August of leaving the musical creation at least for a long time, and as it’s a natural thing, I’ve been rather distant of all the stuff concerning my own music and so on. I’m been in some very concrete moments working in mix, playing guitar or testing some software, but nothing really interesting. During all this time I’ve had much time to think about my decision and I belive I did the correct thing. Sometimes I miss a lot to begin to create music and to continue developing my skills and musical projects, but I don’t forget the sacrifice that I have to do in my life if I want to do music in the way I need or I know, and then I remember the reasons of my decision and I stop to think about it. Now that I can watch my past relation with the music from a more distant perspective, I understand that for me to create music is like drugs or something similiar, as much as I give too many priorities, I consume my health (stress) trying to contend with family, job, music and other obligations or hobbies and I go in a spiral where I want more and more and more… I’ve understood that my creative relation with the music is self-destructive and I must learn to control this relationship. Maybe this spiral of self-destruction has made that I made music during the last year more for my ambitions and objectives than for enjoying really the process. Actually I spend my free time in other kind of things, as simple as playing computer, making reforms at home or watching movies, and I feel I have more free time, I don’t feel so much pressure and I believe I’m better, happier I mean…
In Christmas I’ll be on vacations and I believe it would be a nice time to try to think about music from a more active perspective. Maybe I record some Erik Satie piece by piano or some classical music stuff, I don’t think about more. Actually this is the best compromise that I want to give to my music! Hahaha!
Before to finish and how it’s written in the title, I’ve uploaded recently to this website the excerpt of the demo song that I was making in August, just in the days I took my decision of stopping. This fragment is less than a minute and the sound is not pulished, but at least you’ll be able to know what I was creating then and what path Cautiva was going to take… This unfinished piece possibly was going to be called «OBEY!!».
Finally and concerning this website, I’ve corrected the external links of download for all the albums, especially in the case of «A Retrospective…». All the links to Megaupload were broken since a long time ago and there was an obligation to correct all that.
Best wishes and thanks for reading and listening me,
